I Thought College Was Within My Reach, I Was Wrong!

Sitting here thinking about the world we live in. Life in America is a conspiracy against anyone who isn't white. In terms of education, they enact policies to push us out of school. They tell us you can do whatever you put your mind to and that college is not a choice, but it is mandatory. We get all hopeful thinking we actually have a chance out of the hood, not realizing that we gotta work 10x as hard. We apply to college and get accepted. But can't go because it's too expensive and no matter how many loans we take out, we'll never be able to pay for the education that we have a right to. It's saddening.

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“Good sleep is critical to a healthy emotional life” (23). I couldn’t have said it better myself. For the last past few years, I have been depriving myself of good sleep, staying up really late to memorize information for exams and complete projects and assignments. This has had a detrimental effect on my life in general, more so my emotional life. I have become so overwhelmed with stress, that I have allowed it to turn into something bigger than it was. I am an emotional rollercoaster and every day feels like I am on the brink of a mental breakdown.

Stress is common and a little stress can be healthy, however, stress from college and scholarship applications, never ending homework assignments, extensive projects, a dysfunctional home life, financial struggles and a poor social life has worn me out. Add in a lack of sleep and a lack of proper nutrition, my engine is ready to stop running.

Typically I get about 3-4 hours of sleep a night. This isn’t even a good snooze. Lack of sleep not only makes people grumpy, but it also causes accidents, higher one’s risk for a plethora of heart related diseases, is linked with depression and ages skin faster. So I am depriving myself of sleep to get into a college or university that only sees me as a dollar sign, earn a piece of paper that doesn’t guarantee a job, rack up tens of thousands of dollars in debt, only to look old, and be grumpy and depressed while suffering from a heart related disease. Is completing that twenty-five point assignment actually worth it?

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I turned this in as an assignment for school, and my teacher never even tried to make sure I was okay. This was a warning sign, a call for help, but people are too busy to listen. Where is a support system when you need one?