Daddy Didn't Love Me!

My daddy didn't love me.

Never had a clue why that might be...

Never did he, hold my hand.

Never was he, my best friend.

Called lil sis his baby girl

& momma, his whole world.

He never taught me about boys,

He wasn't even good enough for toys.

Never read to me or told me I'm beautiful.

Never smiled at me and told me he was proud.

Only shhed me, told me I was too loud.

Never consoled me from hysterical tears.

Never did he, soothe my fears.

Never even told me the most important 3.

That's right, he never told me..

That he loved me.

Why?

Then I was told it's because I'm someone else's bastard. He never loved me either.

How could you run off and leave such a beauty?

He couldn't have loved me,

Needed him, but he was never there. To hold me. To love me. Does he even know my name? He's a sorry excuse. I'm ashamed. Where is he now? No place to be found. Maybe burning, underground.

My daddy never loved me.

©2012 By Dominique D. All rights reserved

The James Blues

I'm your girl BUT...
Life goes on around me,
And I can't seem to participate. I experience all the emotions.
I don't want to go out..
I don't want to have fun..
I don't want to do a thing..
Until all is said & done
Jealousy is my mother...
Loneliness is my sister,
And sadness is my bestfriend.
There's nothing I can do but wait...
Something she didn't have to..

I'm YOUR girl BUT... I've never wrapped my arms around your snug physique.
I'm your girl BUT... I've never felt your kiss.
I'm your girl BUT... I've never held you close.
I'm your girl who always wakes up without you by her side.
I'm your girl BUT... she's the one all up in your face..
I'm your girl BUT... she's the one all up in your crib..
I'm your girl BUT... she's the one all in your whip.
I'm your girl BUT... she's the one you pick up at the train.
I'm your girl BUT... she's the one who got a weekend...
But I can't even get a day..
I'm your girl BUT... she's the one you were on the phone with...
I'm your girl BUT... I'm the one still waiting.
I dream about the day when I become that girl...

"Because He Can Be Him"

Because He Can Be Him

Do you know what it’s like...

To feel alone? And abandoned?

Unshielded and unprotected?

From the flirty men, the world has to offer?

The ones whose breath reek of liquor.

The ones who seem harmless,

Yet are the worst of the worst.

The ones who fill your ears with dirty whispers and nasty thoughts?

Dragged into an alley and pinned down,

With a stranger crawling and climbing

All up inside of you.

Screaming and crying out...

For that 1 person to save you,

But they never come.

Always alert and always watchful.

Do you know what it’s like to always look over your shoulder?

To hate every man...

And not be able to trust anyone?

Because he can be him.

Frequent pee, uncontrollable vomit.

Different colors and various scents.

Your belly swells, growing with a monster’s creation.

Nowhere to turn, nothing to do to stop this terrible fate.

Pains and cramps.

Blood and water.

You give birth to a monster’s child,

That only reminds you everyday,

Of that day, you screamed for help

But no one came.

©2012 By Dominique D. All rights reserved